July 03rd
I did my Triad mind meditation today. It feels good to get back to it. Followed by the elemental balance exercise. I was thinking a lot about my childhood and my childhood home. Trying to feel it and remember. I had some memories pop back that I had forgotten. I remember old school friends I completely forgot about. Very interesting.
July 07th
I have been feeling a bit frustrated as I feel that I have problems making true space for my magickal practices with the drama at home. I did sit down for the exercise and walked in vision in the backyard of my childhood home. Its crazy how many details I was able to see. I definitely sense some importance in the backyard.
July 08th 2025
Today after work I came home and was very tired. I was able to meditate and that gave me the necessary motivation to do my practice of the vices. It was very weird because I finally was able to connect to my childhood home to that sewer hole that seemed like it would take me somewhere. I was hesitant but I was gliding fast in a dark tunnel and went up and came out of a tiny hole and I was very small. It was my childhood bedroom. I saw details of forgotten items and I felt in a light trance or akashic feeling my body super weightless and the vision wasn’t super clear but I felt I was there. I think that distracted me but I I was trying to silence myself so I can listen. I thought it was my mind playing tricks but started hearing some repeated whispers. I know there was something there. I hear “miedo miedo miedo miedo” and felt a presence that was there but not showing itself. I decided to take the contact as good sign and in vision left out of there and decided to come back tomorrow.
July 12th
I was visualizing as I have these past days. I always exit through a small crack into my room in a miniature point of view. I stay there and I can feel my body going into a light trance state or very still it feels really good actually. As I have been feeling there is a presence that is there and I have had visions of resembling an old Marta (large mouse like) pet I had when I was a kid. I dont know yet if it’s my mind playing tricks but its been recurring and I feel it going around me and I keep hearing “miedo” which is fear in spanish. So far I haven’t been able to get a clear visual or anything beyond the word but today felt like I was closer to making progress.
Session 2
This was a lot. I am actually very shocked. I returned to the spot and the presence was there. The feeling in my body was very “astral” like my body was in trance and felt completely still. I focused on the voice that kept repeating miedo over and over again. I focused on its presence and it was very clear feeling in my forehead area focusing towards its essence and middle point. I was focused and lost track of time it actually felt very good my body was feeling very light and very “astral”. I realized that it had a faint dark “essence” shape like a fire ball or something and kept concentrating on its essence. I remembered to use my will to impose my dominance and it felt like I was in direct contact with the representation of my fear or A fear. I imposed my will for this essence to transform into a beast. At this point I had a hope that I just wasn’t going to let my mind play tricks on me and “make up” something like a psychological game. But I was surprised because I felt it was feline and out of the blue the feeling and image of a jaguar came into me. It had a symbol in its forehead like a V with a line crossing the top half of the letter. The name Victor came into me and the idea of the name representing victory. I said I will make contact later and that I was going to “return” mainly because I didn’t know what else to do and felt I needed to write it down while it was fresh in my mind.
Session 03
Couple of hours later and I feel different. I feel a different energy in my body that’s the best way to describe it. It is definitely something different.
July 14th
I have been going back where I met Victor. I sense stability and nothing really present in that space. I “feel” Victor and think about his sigil. I haven’t been able yet to directly hear him talk or communicate besides feeling his presence. I think maybe if I stay longer in the meditation I can get some signal. Definitely feels extremely good to stay in meditation. My body feels super good and less “dense”.
I have started with the electromagnetic practice and will await any feedback from you. I will start adding more practice to my journal for the following assignment.
Regards,
Jorge Arturo.