This ritual meditation was performed as part of an evaluation assignment. I entered the practice with a feeling of not being ready or doubting myself. Situations have not been great to do this work at home. I decided to go into this assignment with pure intention. I sought silence and what my most inner voice was calling for.
I set the ambiance by burning incense before I started. I then proceeded to light a single white candle. It represented the power manifest and contained in the flame. I decided to perform this ritual as a meditation, laying down. I gathered my wand and held it in my left hand and my sword in my right hand.
As I did some slow breaths, I focused on stepping out of my body. I saw myself from above, laying there on the bed, then zoomed towards the flame and went through it all the way until that void point inside of it, as a portal to the void that lies there. Going through the flame I felt its warmth and felt it purifying in itself. I had no rehearsed ritual or anything beyond a pure intention.
I imagined myself in a vast room that was completely dark but that I could walk on. At the end of this massive darkness was a narrow light coming from way above, going down to a point where I could walk to, and it stopped there. I knew I was only wearing a robe and kept walking for some time towards that light.
Once I got close I saw a small table made of solid rock, and when I was next to it, as I stepped into this blinding light coming from way above, I could see the engraving on the table. It had an image of a pentagram within a hexagram. There was also what looked like a chalice, but it was big enough for me to feel I should grab my heart and place it there.
It was a very close-to-reality heart; I could feel it as I placed it in the chalice. The sword and wand were also placed there next to the chalice with my living heart. After that I was pulled up by this force upwards to the light until I couldn’t see the table anymore, just a tunnel of light.
After a minute I popped through a hole into a place I have always had a deep desire to return to. I found myself in a vast red-sanded desert with millions of stars so bright that they lit and saturated the colors of this desert. Behind was space that had a deep blue/purple color. I knew I was in the place where everything had started in this lifetime for me.
I slid through the sand until I saw those hooded friends, as they felt like ones I had met before. I got close to them and I kneeled. It felt like surrendering myself to what was happening at the time. I bowed my head and felt a hand on top of my head and another hand on my shoulder.
As I was in this moment my body was extremely saturated with an intense feeling of peace and energy that is hard to describe. It’s worth mentioning that since I had mentally traveled there—and usually I can still have awareness of my body—I was in a deep trance, since I could barely feel my body or even feel the physical wand and sword I was holding with my physical hands.
After being in this intense presence I felt the hands off my body. I felt immense gratitude for this moment. It was hard to articulate anything going on at this point, and I slowly started pulling back and left the presence of these friends.
I found myself back in the hole where the light was coming from and started descending down the light tunnel that I realized was so bright due to those stars above. I was now back next to the table and proceeded to grab my heart and felt a deep reverence for it. I placed it in my chest cavity and grabbed my sword and wand with my hands.
Extremely full of amazement, I then turned around and walked into the vast dark room. I felt a pull towards the void and wasn’t walking anymore. I went again through the flame and back into the room. I descended towards my body, still buzzing with energy.
I have deep reverence and gratitude towards what happened during this ritual meditation.
Thank you.